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Skrg ni aku rasa mcm sikit2 nk sebak lepas dengar lagu slow. haih apehal ko ni mira.
dahla dlm ofis ni. aku pang kang haha

this is a habit i dislike. benda yg slalu terjadi and xtau mcm mne nk stop. bila rse sedih je xleh menahan.
tp dlm public tu aku menahan la kn. cuma sakit la rse cket. smpi org pn xde perasan aku dah mengalir air mata.

sbb tu malas nk dgr lagu2 melayu dlm radio. lembik semacam je..lagi2 duduk kereta 4 jam sehari max kann...mmg fikiran melayang2 la kann..

aku pikir la kn, aku kena slalu buat something different la. just to get out of the routine. just to get my head out of my little problems. yes petty to some people but not to me.

got this from a friend's tweet: "Emotionally unstable. Don't come near me. But a hug is always welcomed" I want to put this on the back of my t-shirt.

btw honestly, i felt lonely.

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Okay, its decided that i'll try to write everyday dengan title formatnya seperti di atas.

Tetiba je kan. Haha.

Rasa macam banyak updates dah tulis kt twitter, mcm lebih kurang microblogging lah kn. Tapi takpelah, aku lebih suka tulis kt blog juga. So updates:

1. Kat tempat kerja still okay. Arif and Amalina, colleague aku yg x pernah jumpa dlu bru balek this month. So far, dorg ngam je dgn aku. or maybe I just can easily fit with others. macam ada org kata, aku ni cepat warm up bila nk berkenalan. Plus dorg pn umur 23-24, so tade masalah la kn. Just ktorg ni still muda dlm company ni. TAPI SERIUS BOSANNN SBB COMPANY KECIKK JE SO X BYK BENDA BERLAKUU hahaa..GOSIP PN SIKIT LA KN. eh.

2. Oh ye! Tak pernah cerita pasal driver bos. Masa mula2 masuk dlu ada driver baru. tapi disebabkan perangai dia yg x brape elok, last2 dia sndiri resign sbb dia tau pasni mybe dia kena pecat. teruk2

3. New bos driver this week! And we're really surprised to see yang budak nih umur 23 tahun!!! what a shocker! dia baru graduated in geomatic engineering (? what kind of engineering is that? haha) kt utm skudai (oh well, utm mmg byk jenis engineering pelik2 haha, sepupu stadi situ)

4. Erm..last week byk benda jadi, not so important la tapi. one of them is my batch's plan nk panjat broga. tp plan dia mcm x bersungguh, mcm xde org update mcm mne nk jmpe ke..sekian2.. tp aritu mmg nk pegi dah, janji ngn kwn dua org ni nk naik keta dia. last2 dua2 x bangun!! muahahaha.

5. lg satu plan igt nk gi kenduri kawan yg kenal kt UPM arituh tp kt Ipoh la. and sorg dak TGB yg satu batch tp x rapat pn. yang tuh kt johor. so mmg x dapatla knn haha. I wish them a lot of joy and keberkatan dari Allah. Amin~~

6. update smlm nih cmpur ngn hari ni pnye lah. harini sgt2 lahhh slow, and bosan. Puasa juga harini. puasa ganti hehe. dah lama x puasa sbnrnye. so agak x bermaya.

7. Semalam gi tgk Wreck it Ralph! ngn adek2 lelaki aku. Best!! ^____^ . lama dah sbrnye x tgk cte kanak2 cmni. comel! I guess I left childhood so fast though.

8. Currently I've been thinking, am I moving too fast? Yelaa sbb terbang gi US setahun/2 taun awal dr kwn2 se batch. I lost one year of youth (literally ye). I know it hasnt take a toll on me during college years, tp skrg ni rasa sgt. With you being at work before your same age friends, you felt alone and stuff etc2. I know this may be temporary. but it felt like I could've have being in the journey where I experience this with my friends.

paham dak hahahhaaha...dah2

and the worse thing is, I still felt like, am I suitable for this engineering stuff? Or I havent found a job that suits me.

9. Tapi pikir gak, senior2 vandy dlu wat cmne la kn..mesti ada gak yg rse cmnih kt satu fasa dlm hidop dorg. or ada je org yg genius skip years belajar sume, mesti ada rse cmni gak. so i should fight this feelings. yela, overthinking bila xde benda lain nk buat.

:D k till tomorrow!

*nak buka puasa ape eh arini?

Istanbul aku Datang & Bond

Hi!

Kan dah cakap nk update hehe. susa btol skrg nk update post. xdela sbb busy mne, tp idea tu kluar bila mmg x duduk depan laptop. So i'm assuming duduk depan laptop ni x membantu proses kreativiti langsung? haha. kk merepek i know.

Last week hari khamis lepas balek kerja, kawan aku fiza, ajak aku kluar jln mlm tu. aku bab2 kluar ni bukan slalu hehe. so aku ikot je la dia eventhough jalan jammm tp sbb dia on the way balek so i'm on!

mmg random gila jalan2 sunway pyramid nih, dah kali kedua ktorg pegi situ lepas kerja. need to go somewhere else k. ktorg tgk wayang je haritu cte james bond! ^___^

to be honest, I've never watched James Bond movie before. EVER. haha. I am not a movie-person either. last time tgk movie is the one when its cte Batman. tgk ngn sape eh? hilang ingatan cket. huhu. so mcm xtau if Bond in sequel ke tidak. tapi tgk je sbb org kata the movie is the BEST BOND movie ever.

For me personally, the movie was great! walaupun kadang2 cerita dia slow cket. hehe. well, I'm a person that is easily pleased. hehe. first time tgk Bond, Daniel Craig ni hensem juga lah kan haha. lagi2 bila time actions yg dia buat. dlu2 ade kwn ni suke dia ni, and more old actors. time tu aku punyalah criticize dia psl taste dia. skali bole tahan gak la haha. *mamat geek/nerd dlm gamba kedua cute* bwahahaha

and the best intro ever, haha...

Overall I give you 4/5, Bond :)

Lepas tu hari Sabtu lepas, I punya anak buah punya kenduri kesyukuran <3 2-3="2-3" al="al" br="br" cicit="cicit" dia.="dia." dlm="dlm" falah="falah" family="family" giliran="giliran" haha="haha" ikot="ikot" lagi="lagi" lagii="lagii" lama="lama" mama.="mama." me="me" nama="nama" nenek="nenek" noh="noh" pertama="pertama" sepupu="sepupu"> Then mlm tu pegi tgk Istanbul aku datang dengan cousins! Cute gila cerita dia :D whats better is the view in Turkey! sngat cantik!! nk gi honeymoon sana lah *future hubby take note*. and baju2 yg lisa surihani pakai sume cantik2! Oh btw, aku bukan org yg suka tgk cerita melayu eh, atas obvious reason tp yg ini mmg best! perempuan mesti suka lah cte ni. aku ade tgk Aku Terima Nikahnya tapi BOSAN. jgn tgk, rugi je duit. k tu lain cte kn.

Mula2 tgk cte ni sbb Tomok je. x minat lisa sbb rse dia cm overrated. and  beto mmg x knal lgsg ah jgn ckp haha. lepas tgk ni tiba2 rse patutla ramai minat lisa surihani :) dia mmg cm sweet pn~ and suka lahh tgk Beto dlm cte ni. sweet haha. character dia je kott.

Overall 4/5 gak! haha

ktorg cousins ni actually x pernah jalan sama2 tiga org skali~ ni first time and i had a great night with them :')

hmm tu je kot buat kali ni. byee korg <3 br="br">

New Blog!

Hi korang! lamanye x tulis blog nih kn? ni nk bgtau, aritu ade buat blog baru. this one is somewhat my personal blog ekeke. so it must be private kn? ^___^

Kalau ade org nk follow, leh tulis kt comment sini kot? or inform in fb ke (cehhhh mcm byk follower je kn pffttt :P)

Blog yang ni mungkin akan tulis jugakkk tp mungkin more too other than personal thing. haha kita tgk lahh. :)

kk have a nice day korg!

aishh rindunyeee nk tulis blog yang ni~~

BIG UPDATE haha

Rasa macam lama gila tak tulis entry post. Ada rasa pelik jugak nak tulis bm sbb slalu sgt try tulis English haha. bm jd mcm ntah ape2.

So, tetibe rasa nk update blog setelah sekian lama berhabuk blog ni :P tgh pukul 5 pagi hari khamis harini. tgh stay up sbb nk clearkn laptop nk bg rosak so bole dpt replacement sbb seriously laptop aku nazak gila, like mcm dah merah dah space die. Td pn tgh dlm usaha nk siapkan homework due esok *haha procrastination still*

kk nk update:

1. Da senior last semester ni, perasaan? ntah xde pape sgt, maybe rse best nk habes blaja but at the same time, tak nampak masa dpn. I know I think too much haha tp seriously I hope all goes well. Last semester mcm byk sgt benda nk kena manage sbb da senior kn. Tetibe email byk psl benda2 after college and I havent think at all what I should do after college time Junior year dlu. Ignorant me, right. Time kt sini byk sgt benda jd yg byk gak buat aku down. Stress pn salah satu punca kot. Time nk recover, mcm jatuh ditimpa tangga je mslh. ada gak pikir maybe org lain punya mslh lg besar dr aku so aku malas nk cte2 kt org sbb org lain pn ade mslh sndiri. kk cerita lama. I also think I lost some of my self confidence all the way through the process. Yes mmg susah nk dpt balek confidence but now I'm slowly making the best out of it. Takkn smpi bila2 nk jd cmni kn. Thank God for less burden this semester, yet probably. haha

2. Last Winter Trip: San Francisco - LA - Las Vegas :)

probably one of my favorite trips sepanjang kt US. favorite kt Canada :) Sob2 last trip maybe sbb da xde duit. Spring Break stay je kot kt vandy. trip ktorg 19 org, my car only 4 people, aku, Aqis, Syun, Irfan. Me and 3 guys. LOL and we barely know each other before. lupa nk tambah, semua dak Junior except aku. yeah i feel a lil bit young there. haha. I kinda like being with guys because they're more open and stuff and you know a lot of stuff (different stuff from what girls talk hehe) which i like, tp at the same time, its missing its warmness. alah u know guys, mana kesah certain things. So kdg2 je la, I felt a lil bit boring and lonely? lol okay i cant describe it. Rasa mcm xde teman nk cerita benda2 prpuan la kot. *I'm bad at describing things, my bad~ nk tgk gamba, mehla tgk kt facebook, penat tau upload :P

3. Now working as a pekerja buruh. haha kerja kt tempat kafetaria (err eja btol ke x ni eh?) kerja dining, mcm serve org, buat waffle ke omelette ke, and tlg pastikan pinggan mangkuk sume ada kt tmpt asal dorg and pastikan sume bersih. serius kerja ni penat, and gaji pn x sepadan dgn kerja die. even kerja reeve or kerja kt Tech centre or Media center yg duduk angkat call pn gaji mahal cket. nasib2.. lol and the worst thing is, x pasal2 kena tegur x buat kerja ngn bos. bukan x buat kerja, masalahnye sume da setel, xkn nk pusing2 lak kan? da la time rush hour aku byk tlg lol. xpe2 saba2.. i need money! haha bersyukur2

4. what else? oh i joined 4 dances for anyf this year. okay mcm tamak. mula2 nk masuk 3 je tp terlupa nk sign up satu ni so x masuk mula2. so mcm sign in benda lain. tetibe org lain drop, so die ajak aku masuk balek. and aku mmg teringin nk masuk dance tu haha. so alkisahnya aku masuk 4. xpe kot, still can manage lg. lgpn sem ni 7 credit hour je :)

5. mcm x percaya gak sem ni 7 credit hour je tp advisor dah cek, mmg tggl tu je lol. 1 klas design, 1 klas process control(cheme) and satu klas chinese calligraphy :D hope all goes well Amin~~

6. other things: less people to crush on. HAHA xleh bla. kalau time seniors tahun lps ada dlu, still ada crush la tp biase2 je skrg (pengakuan2). maybe sbb kita paling tua kat sini so mcm x suke spe2 dah (okay, this is sooo childish!). it struck me that maybe i'm maturing? until some point i kinda have crush on some people younger than me. tp buat2 bese je kot sbb org tu maybe anggap kita mcm kakak die. k dah. will not talk too much about this tettt. why am i so unlucky in love. (oke cheesyyy, byee)

omg less than 120 days (x kira, tp ade kwn kira) nk grad! post ni pn rse mcm panjang gila dah. mcm la ade org baca kn smpi nk pikir pnjg mne nk tulis. hehe ke ada?

and i'm 21 going to be 22 (lama lagi). and still transitioning to adult life. i felt that mcm susa gila nk separatekn rse independent and dependent kt parents sbb lama sgt jauh dgn dorg. mcm time ktorg sama2 x byk. ive been in boarding school since 13. so mcm byk masa teenager jauh ngn parents. tgh pikir mesti pelik time balek msia nnt. lagi2 sulung mcm aku ni. jeng3

k itu mcm update keseluruhan je kot sepanjang maybe 6 months? x igt. hee okay bye! :)

p/s: currently in repeat haha. first time liking something from this band. x igt dgr ktne tp rsenye dlm playlist Syun time ktorg trip and dgr harini sbb tekan link James.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusanku di saat2 final ini. Amin~ jauhkan lah aku dr perasaan pesisimis (btol ke aku eja ni eh) yg seringkali menyusahkn diri sndiri ini. I hope for a better tomorrow :)

Alive

"The fact that they will leave me when they found someone better makes me think twice to be close and comfortable to them.

Sedang mencuba menulis di blog yg dah lama terbiar haha. Byk draft sbnrnya saved. Skrg ni bru ada apps blogger free! Next time ill write about this semester. Hee ja mata!

The One That Got Away - Katy Perry w/ Lyrics

love Katy Perry! :)

I do that always..... Lol

Kamenashi Kazuya :)

Kame!!! I've been crushing over him ever since I watched Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge ♥

best gila cte tu! I dont usually watch J-drama but yeah i decided to since I decided to learn Japanese haha. I did noticed him when my friend, Sarah shows this J-pop group KAT-TUN as the most good looking one but I didnt bother to search him up.

I told Sarah that I have a crush on him :P and she said what? he's a pretty boy and kinda looks like a girl because he's too pretty! okay I dont care hehe

Classes had been going..normal, dont know what other words to describe it. Senior year still x rse lepak2 lg maybe sbb saya budak cheme TT next sem maybe...

I've really start to feel scared of the post-grad day because I cant really imagine what I'll do after this. Actually I've never want to think of this day. It's a whole new world ya know. A big big world with lots of responsibilities. sighh. I want my carefree days and I know that will not happen. Guess I'm too naive~

Japanese classes are great! and im not regretting it~ I like learning new characters and phrases etc.. with depressing engineering classes and a 5-hours horror lab (and we have to stay in lab even though we finished the lab =.='), taking this class makes me looking forward to it everyday :)

There's so much going on inside me that I feel its not worth mentioning anymore. I've open my blog thinking to write about it but then I punched ctrl+w. why is that its me who starts everything? I've trying to work on my relationships but I dont see the other party doing that.

penat tau x penat...its you who dont try to understand me, talking behind my back (actually in front because i actually heard it accidentally when you are in front of me, not noticing me at your back) i dont talk bad about people unless they started it first.

what you did to me, you will also get it from me. yes, aku mmg pendendam sbb semuanya slalu terpendam dlm hati (and voluntarily i get depressed because of people)

people say i can get along with people well. yeah on the outside, not on the inside. i've been unhappy and confused. if you dont know me well, dont judge me

shoot, tersasar dah post ni lol

Thats my life for now. next week, seniors will have a engineering/IT career fair which we must go. I cant think of anything of what to do there. I think this is new. somewhat alike with the transition from high school to college.

Nice song from Archuleta :)

I heard this song from someone's blog, soo nice! replaying it ever since. :D