maybe i should take things easy. i knew i lack something before. but i never had a clear view of it.

now i knew. that i am important to myself. that i am the one who is responsible for myself.

i thought i've been good. i thought things were going smoothly.

but all i was is just irresponsible girl who did not think for herself.

i just realized that i've been trying soo hard to be perfect.

trying damn hard to make things soo perfect that i strained myself.

maybe being perfect is not perfect.

its just me. i always had a kind of thinking that people are watching me.

i know. i know. its wrong.

but i could not let my mind free from the thinking. i've been hurt before.

i know i should stand for myself at that time. but i was soo damn naive.

maybe i should start it all over again. hoping that the past will not haunt me.

the thing is. the past always reminding me. i should be strong to defend myself.

one thing. i pray to God for me to be myself. I pray that Allah will guide me..InsyaAllah~

probably i dont value myself before. maybe i was just naive again.

i should start again. yeah. i should. friends lead me. stop me from perfection.

And let me forget about the past. i will change..

p/s: btw, i just came back from watching Twilight!!!!!!!!

EDWARD!!!!!! lap u beribu lemonnnnnn~hehee =)

*your skin is pale white, ice cold*

penatnye kepaleee...

byk btol nk tules..haha
hmm..sok igt nk amek gamba waktu fall r..
sbb skrg ni asyik bz je..smpi x pasan lak fall nk berakhir(xtaw r bilenye LOL)
hehe..bz smpi diri x terurus..smpi x pasan aku x spend tym for diri aku..
mcm mne nk kate ye..aku rse cm mase berlalu ngn cepat r kt sini..
penat sgt..smlm aku tdo kol 5 pagi..ni sume gare2 lab repot..bukan ape..
aku bole je siap cpt..tp kdg2 aku xtawla..cpt bosan bwat so melencong cket..
byk gak actually..haish cane nk jadi rajin ni..jadi chemE student kene rajin..=_=
dok sini bwat focus aku jadi makin hilang..ade satu sbb tp aku xtawla itu ade sbb laen lg ke..
tp mmg aku pasan la..dahla aku ni mmg jns termenung..
im hoping sgt2 dpt focus for final~
pray 4 me ye kwn2..risau ni..math da xley dpt A dah~