BIG UPDATE haha

Rasa macam lama gila tak tulis entry post. Ada rasa pelik jugak nak tulis bm sbb slalu sgt try tulis English haha. bm jd mcm ntah ape2.

So, tetibe rasa nk update blog setelah sekian lama berhabuk blog ni :P tgh pukul 5 pagi hari khamis harini. tgh stay up sbb nk clearkn laptop nk bg rosak so bole dpt replacement sbb seriously laptop aku nazak gila, like mcm dah merah dah space die. Td pn tgh dlm usaha nk siapkan homework due esok *haha procrastination still*

kk nk update:

1. Da senior last semester ni, perasaan? ntah xde pape sgt, maybe rse best nk habes blaja but at the same time, tak nampak masa dpn. I know I think too much haha tp seriously I hope all goes well. Last semester mcm byk sgt benda nk kena manage sbb da senior kn. Tetibe email byk psl benda2 after college and I havent think at all what I should do after college time Junior year dlu. Ignorant me, right. Time kt sini byk sgt benda jd yg byk gak buat aku down. Stress pn salah satu punca kot. Time nk recover, mcm jatuh ditimpa tangga je mslh. ada gak pikir maybe org lain punya mslh lg besar dr aku so aku malas nk cte2 kt org sbb org lain pn ade mslh sndiri. kk cerita lama. I also think I lost some of my self confidence all the way through the process. Yes mmg susah nk dpt balek confidence but now I'm slowly making the best out of it. Takkn smpi bila2 nk jd cmni kn. Thank God for less burden this semester, yet probably. haha

2. Last Winter Trip: San Francisco - LA - Las Vegas :)

probably one of my favorite trips sepanjang kt US. favorite kt Canada :) Sob2 last trip maybe sbb da xde duit. Spring Break stay je kot kt vandy. trip ktorg 19 org, my car only 4 people, aku, Aqis, Syun, Irfan. Me and 3 guys. LOL and we barely know each other before. lupa nk tambah, semua dak Junior except aku. yeah i feel a lil bit young there. haha. I kinda like being with guys because they're more open and stuff and you know a lot of stuff (different stuff from what girls talk hehe) which i like, tp at the same time, its missing its warmness. alah u know guys, mana kesah certain things. So kdg2 je la, I felt a lil bit boring and lonely? lol okay i cant describe it. Rasa mcm xde teman nk cerita benda2 prpuan la kot. *I'm bad at describing things, my bad~ nk tgk gamba, mehla tgk kt facebook, penat tau upload :P

3. Now working as a pekerja buruh. haha kerja kt tempat kafetaria (err eja btol ke x ni eh?) kerja dining, mcm serve org, buat waffle ke omelette ke, and tlg pastikan pinggan mangkuk sume ada kt tmpt asal dorg and pastikan sume bersih. serius kerja ni penat, and gaji pn x sepadan dgn kerja die. even kerja reeve or kerja kt Tech centre or Media center yg duduk angkat call pn gaji mahal cket. nasib2.. lol and the worst thing is, x pasal2 kena tegur x buat kerja ngn bos. bukan x buat kerja, masalahnye sume da setel, xkn nk pusing2 lak kan? da la time rush hour aku byk tlg lol. xpe2 saba2.. i need money! haha bersyukur2

4. what else? oh i joined 4 dances for anyf this year. okay mcm tamak. mula2 nk masuk 3 je tp terlupa nk sign up satu ni so x masuk mula2. so mcm sign in benda lain. tetibe org lain drop, so die ajak aku masuk balek. and aku mmg teringin nk masuk dance tu haha. so alkisahnya aku masuk 4. xpe kot, still can manage lg. lgpn sem ni 7 credit hour je :)

5. mcm x percaya gak sem ni 7 credit hour je tp advisor dah cek, mmg tggl tu je lol. 1 klas design, 1 klas process control(cheme) and satu klas chinese calligraphy :D hope all goes well Amin~~

6. other things: less people to crush on. HAHA xleh bla. kalau time seniors tahun lps ada dlu, still ada crush la tp biase2 je skrg (pengakuan2). maybe sbb kita paling tua kat sini so mcm x suke spe2 dah (okay, this is sooo childish!). it struck me that maybe i'm maturing? until some point i kinda have crush on some people younger than me. tp buat2 bese je kot sbb org tu maybe anggap kita mcm kakak die. k dah. will not talk too much about this tettt. why am i so unlucky in love. (oke cheesyyy, byee)

omg less than 120 days (x kira, tp ade kwn kira) nk grad! post ni pn rse mcm panjang gila dah. mcm la ade org baca kn smpi nk pikir pnjg mne nk tulis. hehe ke ada?

and i'm 21 going to be 22 (lama lagi). and still transitioning to adult life. i felt that mcm susa gila nk separatekn rse independent and dependent kt parents sbb lama sgt jauh dgn dorg. mcm time ktorg sama2 x byk. ive been in boarding school since 13. so mcm byk masa teenager jauh ngn parents. tgh pikir mesti pelik time balek msia nnt. lagi2 sulung mcm aku ni. jeng3

k itu mcm update keseluruhan je kot sepanjang maybe 6 months? x igt. hee okay bye! :)

p/s: currently in repeat haha. first time liking something from this band. x igt dgr ktne tp rsenye dlm playlist Syun time ktorg trip and dgr harini sbb tekan link James.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusanku di saat2 final ini. Amin~ jauhkan lah aku dr perasaan pesisimis (btol ke aku eja ni eh) yg seringkali menyusahkn diri sndiri ini. I hope for a better tomorrow :)

Alive

"The fact that they will leave me when they found someone better makes me think twice to be close and comfortable to them.

Sedang mencuba menulis di blog yg dah lama terbiar haha. Byk draft sbnrnya saved. Skrg ni bru ada apps blogger free! Next time ill write about this semester. Hee ja mata!

The One That Got Away - Katy Perry w/ Lyrics

love Katy Perry! :)

I do that always..... Lol

Kamenashi Kazuya :)

Kame!!! I've been crushing over him ever since I watched Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge ♥

best gila cte tu! I dont usually watch J-drama but yeah i decided to since I decided to learn Japanese haha. I did noticed him when my friend, Sarah shows this J-pop group KAT-TUN as the most good looking one but I didnt bother to search him up.

I told Sarah that I have a crush on him :P and she said what? he's a pretty boy and kinda looks like a girl because he's too pretty! okay I dont care hehe

Classes had been going..normal, dont know what other words to describe it. Senior year still x rse lepak2 lg maybe sbb saya budak cheme TT next sem maybe...

I've really start to feel scared of the post-grad day because I cant really imagine what I'll do after this. Actually I've never want to think of this day. It's a whole new world ya know. A big big world with lots of responsibilities. sighh. I want my carefree days and I know that will not happen. Guess I'm too naive~

Japanese classes are great! and im not regretting it~ I like learning new characters and phrases etc.. with depressing engineering classes and a 5-hours horror lab (and we have to stay in lab even though we finished the lab =.='), taking this class makes me looking forward to it everyday :)

There's so much going on inside me that I feel its not worth mentioning anymore. I've open my blog thinking to write about it but then I punched ctrl+w. why is that its me who starts everything? I've trying to work on my relationships but I dont see the other party doing that.

penat tau x penat...its you who dont try to understand me, talking behind my back (actually in front because i actually heard it accidentally when you are in front of me, not noticing me at your back) i dont talk bad about people unless they started it first.

what you did to me, you will also get it from me. yes, aku mmg pendendam sbb semuanya slalu terpendam dlm hati (and voluntarily i get depressed because of people)

people say i can get along with people well. yeah on the outside, not on the inside. i've been unhappy and confused. if you dont know me well, dont judge me

shoot, tersasar dah post ni lol

Thats my life for now. next week, seniors will have a engineering/IT career fair which we must go. I cant think of anything of what to do there. I think this is new. somewhat alike with the transition from high school to college.

Nice song from Archuleta :)

I heard this song from someone's blog, soo nice! replaying it ever since. :D

naik gilaaa

waaaaaa i think i need to work on managing my stress/pressure level. hihuu. hari sabtu bru tau hwk design kena hantar hari isnin. so mcm pressure sbb x sedia pape pn. bukan x bese sbrnye last minute tp ni mcm tetiba je, stress gila weekend ni!

siap dlm wktu subuh2 tu kol 6am then klas pukul 9, so kena bgn pukul 8am la. bermaksud kena tdo 2 jam je! :( i love sleeping~~

oh yes mlm smlm ada raya celebration by the juniors, sronok gak smlm cuma agak packed cket sbb tmpt tu kecik gak, tp ramai org yg dijemput haha. mat saleh pn byk taun ni :) cuma yg x besnye mse balek, time tu hujan so mcm xnk balek jln kaki, so tggu vandy van. time tu nk pau2 mknn cket tp sbb nk cepat, kuah tumpah :( habes bju..stress2..serius aku rse aku xleh buat keje bila org pressure ni. tp aku tau kena ubah. tp its still hard. i get stressed very easily :\ which is a bad thing. i have this kinda thing that when im excited, i will be very excited, and when im in negative mood, i will be in that mood deeply LOL.

td 3 jam free pegi wat resume kena hantar HARINI gak lg 6 jam haha. oke trok for sure. tp at least this is work under pressure kn? :P bile wat resume ni, rse mcm kosong je :| x byk benda leh letak. haeh. xpe senior ni sempat lg nk wat activity pape.

aritu pegi student health sbb something, pastu doc mcm pelik sbb byk yg mcm x kena, so dorg ckp sbb stress LOL

skrg ni makin byk pimples. benci2.. dlu xde pn cmni, bru nk membesar kot haha. blom satu elok, tetibe kluar lg tmpt lain. seteres2

btw klas cheme sem ni mcm boring cket. haiyaaa, susa btol nk focus :| bile focus je, asyik kate boring je. maybe sbb material, maybe jugak sbb professor die kureng cket. nk prof jennings or laibinis! :[ my mind kept wandering lps try focus. prof2 sem ni lak bukan jenis yg summarize kn ape yg die ajar mcm laibinis ngn jennings, so klu terlepas dgr, x dgr dah lah. nk harap bce buku? haha. i took 5 credit Japanese class and i like it! hari2 blaja benda ni, so mcm course load mcm berat cket. tp rse best! sbb hari2 wat hwk la aku mcm rajin ni kot :D

oh and did i mention that i just bought a new dslr? CANON T3i! <333 tp still rse mcm x reti sgt nk gne manual dia hihuu. oke, penat tulis. bye!

nekko haja!! :)

wasnt going to open Allkpop today, but i did huh

Title: Nekko(Be Mine) Haja? (Okay?)

x expect pn sedap or catchy mne lgu ni, sbb lagu2 before dorg bes gila..so cm rendahkn expectation r takot x sedap.. tp AWESOME GILA weyhh

haha kbyeesokexam~~

this is why i fell in love in the first place in korean scene and stuff ;) their ost's :)

walaupun aku x paham spth haram ape die nyanyi, i was drawn to it. since then, i was interested in their language. its beautiful, in fact one of most beautiful language in the world, if not, my opinion. *yeay skrg ni da leh paham cket2 lgu ni w/out tgk lyrics*

so today's my 2nd half, macro econ. bosan cket sbnrnye, i was lost sometimes when the substitute teacher gives the lesson. pls r prof die okay :)

my weekend

huishhh panasnye hariniii danggitt..kluar x tgk weather lak tuh, men pakai je cardigan =.=' 39 degree..bahang panas mcm kt msia

nyesal x pinjam kete org gi amek package, van lak masuk bengkel..ish ni yg buat mcm x saba nk ade kete sndiri haha

package lak lmbt smpi huhu..slalu cmtu kot, smpi nk dekat kol 4..x dpt ah nk cepat2..td pn tmpt amek package nk tutup dah, seb bek pakcik baek bg bukak jap..rumet aku sorg ni lak x smpt nk pos brg diee haha..tu la lmbt siap :P

pastu panas2 tu lapa lak teringin nk makan satay, patot letak package tu balek dlu..penat2 semputt

weekend ni cm bese r tgk movie jap, cte korea jap, novel jap..pastu smlm rse stuffy sgt..nk kate mkn, xde sgt pn..biskut je pn..rse mcm xleh wat pape..rpenye sbb minum 4 cawan kopi hahah!

kopi french cappucinno je pn tp yela byk sgt caffein kot ngn air manis..x suke air kosong kot lol..

tambah lg ngn mate asyik tgk laptop je..bosan gak r..kdg2 rse nk dok luar sje2 lepak2 tgk pemandangan vandy yg slalu tgk ni..

lme btol x bace novel..skrg ni sume terabur..bce satu, berhenti, terbeli bru, bce cket konon nk habeskn buku no 2, busy pastu stop, terbeli bru lg hahaha omg habit beli buku cantek lol

buku yg bce fes tu sparuh jln dah, so igt nk sambung balek ah..nk hbes dah tu

sbrnye la kn..buku nye story lg bes dr movie/drama sbb wordings die bes..pastu rse mcm kite jd mcm watak buku tu cewahhh..cume focus aku cepat hilang bile lps bce 2 muka surat ._.

same goes with watching drama. klu tgk drama, mula la hilang focus lps satu part tgk eventhough bukan sbb cte tu bosan, tp sbb aku yg cepat bosan..u get wat i mean?

movie pn sme, berhenti jap lps stgh jam..pastu bukak mende mengarut mcm fb twitter ym although xde bende yg nk ditgk pn(bukan ade org nk msg pn haha)

kdg2 xde sbb, kdg2 sbb tetibe ade isu yg aku curious..x kesah la ape2

contoh, tgh2 tgk cte korea ni, mak mertua heroin ni ckp suruh anak die letak gamba Grace Kelly dlm bilik heroin tu supaya cucu die leh jd cantek, bapak mentua kate letak Audrey Hepburn lol

Audrey hepburn kenal la, tp Grace Kelly x, so aku gi search wiki youtube psl die hahahaha

xde keje ngeh3..lps tu terbukak Mika-Grace Kelly kt related videos..teringat yg suke Mika dlu..

then, gi la wat station Mika kt pandora, dgr lgu bwh ni, terus suka! :) lmenye x dgr lgu mika!

rpenye ni satu album ngn lgu Big Girl ngn Lollipop (Life in Cartoon Motion)

gomen, byk merepek~~ ;p

updated: waaaaa terlupe harini ade meeting reeve, x dpt byk syif la bulan ni camni :(

bad day today, hope for a better day tomorrow~