maybe i should take things easy. i knew i lack something before. but i never had a clear view of it.

now i knew. that i am important to myself. that i am the one who is responsible for myself.

i thought i've been good. i thought things were going smoothly.

but all i was is just irresponsible girl who did not think for herself.

i just realized that i've been trying soo hard to be perfect.

trying damn hard to make things soo perfect that i strained myself.

maybe being perfect is not perfect.

its just me. i always had a kind of thinking that people are watching me.

i know. i know. its wrong.

but i could not let my mind free from the thinking. i've been hurt before.

i know i should stand for myself at that time. but i was soo damn naive.

maybe i should start it all over again. hoping that the past will not haunt me.

the thing is. the past always reminding me. i should be strong to defend myself.

one thing. i pray to God for me to be myself. I pray that Allah will guide me..InsyaAllah~

probably i dont value myself before. maybe i was just naive again.

i should start again. yeah. i should. friends lead me. stop me from perfection.

And let me forget about the past. i will change..

p/s: btw, i just came back from watching Twilight!!!!!!!!

EDWARD!!!!!! lap u beribu lemonnnnnn~hehee =)

*your skin is pale white, ice cold*