post-summer rising junior :P

minggu ni mmg aku x btol sikit. week final la katekn. socio nye paper was mehh, it was the hardest of all the other socio test. dah nme nye final. makin byk soklan esei pendek. please r okay or cukup2 makan pn xpe pls..


lps tu esei socio 8 page punye la lme nk siap. haih. bosan btol. 3 hari x kluar rumah, asyik membace n menulis esei. mengadap lappy 24 jam. mmg mate mcm sakit, merah sikit. tp sbb nk wat esei ni la, preparation utk final physic mcm agak hancus. tp bole kot. haiyo dahla tdo x btol. overall im glad everything ended :) 
meaning im free for while yeay! xgi jalan mne2 sbb rsenye xyah asyik jalan2 tiap2 cuti kot. duit x cukup nk jalan2. ee bile nk dpt duit reeve ni *wonder2*


lps final je, esoknye iaitu hari sabtu, sume org pindah rumah baru. aku dpt apartment 3 org tgkt 9. fuh tggi tp suka. cuma x masok lg rumah tu sbb ex penghuni2 x habis kemas lg. tp dorg da habis sbnrnye skrg ni. bru je.
esok la siap sume angkat. mlm ni tdo rumah kwn jap.


im getting fed up with people yg kate suare aku perlahan. oke one part of it my fault sbb suare aku. but i tried. dari dlu org kata sore perlahan. skrg makin kuat, nk buat cmne lg? penat la oke. mcm xnk ckp pape je. nk senyum je bole x. xde idea nk ckp. lps tu satu isu lagi, someone said aku byk ckp. no offense kt org yg ckp tu, mmg btol aku byk ckp skrg. 


i freaking hate silence. i felt that its something bothering me if it is too silent. kalau aku dok sorg2 xpe gak haha. salah satu sbb mungkin aku seorg pendengar and bukan pencerita dlu2 time skola. even now i cant tell a story properly to anyone =_=' not a good story teller nor a great info-giver(is this a legal word? haha). so bila dtg sini, tgk mostly people surrounding me mcm jenis senyap, mostly la, aku jadi bosan. lol 
something inside me is itching to break the silence. pastu stat merepek. aku cpt bosan skrg ni. crap btol feeling ini. 

its hard for me to change from me yg dlu yg senyap n suare perlahan to me yg skrg yg agak byk ckp n agak kuat suare. smpi skrg aku tataw mne lebih baik. aku xtaw ape yg aku buat ni baik utk aku ke x. smpi penat nk berubah ke arah lebih baik ( yg lebih baik pn aku taktaw ) 

so its hard for me to change back me. i dont want to change. its hard. not saying that when you are with me, you have to talk all the time. just enough to make a conversation. even smile is good enough bcoz sometimes people pn tgh in no mood or in bad mood and that explains

human is complicated. truly a great God creation. semua ni ujian neh..