Love is to be vulnerable ;)

 Found this on one of my currently favourite blogs, Shea Rasol. Thiz iz so cute! :)

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Skrg ni aku rasa mcm sikit2 nk sebak lepas dengar lagu slow. haih apehal ko ni mira.
dahla dlm ofis ni. aku pang kang haha

this is a habit i dislike. benda yg slalu terjadi and xtau mcm mne nk stop. bila rse sedih je xleh menahan.
tp dlm public tu aku menahan la kn. cuma sakit la rse cket. smpi org pn xde perasan aku dah mengalir air mata.

sbb tu malas nk dgr lagu2 melayu dlm radio. lembik semacam je..lagi2 duduk kereta 4 jam sehari max kann...mmg fikiran melayang2 la kann..

aku pikir la kn, aku kena slalu buat something different la. just to get out of the routine. just to get my head out of my little problems. yes petty to some people but not to me.

got this from a friend's tweet: "Emotionally unstable. Don't come near me. But a hug is always welcomed" I want to put this on the back of my t-shirt.

btw honestly, i felt lonely.

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Okay, its decided that i'll try to write everyday dengan title formatnya seperti di atas.

Tetiba je kan. Haha.

Rasa macam banyak updates dah tulis kt twitter, mcm lebih kurang microblogging lah kn. Tapi takpelah, aku lebih suka tulis kt blog juga. So updates:

1. Kat tempat kerja still okay. Arif and Amalina, colleague aku yg x pernah jumpa dlu bru balek this month. So far, dorg ngam je dgn aku. or maybe I just can easily fit with others. macam ada org kata, aku ni cepat warm up bila nk berkenalan. Plus dorg pn umur 23-24, so tade masalah la kn. Just ktorg ni still muda dlm company ni. TAPI SERIUS BOSANNN SBB COMPANY KECIKK JE SO X BYK BENDA BERLAKUU hahaa..GOSIP PN SIKIT LA KN. eh.

2. Oh ye! Tak pernah cerita pasal driver bos. Masa mula2 masuk dlu ada driver baru. tapi disebabkan perangai dia yg x brape elok, last2 dia sndiri resign sbb dia tau pasni mybe dia kena pecat. teruk2

3. New bos driver this week! And we're really surprised to see yang budak nih umur 23 tahun!!! what a shocker! dia baru graduated in geomatic engineering (? what kind of engineering is that? haha) kt utm skudai (oh well, utm mmg byk jenis engineering pelik2 haha, sepupu stadi situ)

4. Erm..last week byk benda jadi, not so important la tapi. one of them is my batch's plan nk panjat broga. tp plan dia mcm x bersungguh, mcm xde org update mcm mne nk jmpe ke..sekian2.. tp aritu mmg nk pegi dah, janji ngn kwn dua org ni nk naik keta dia. last2 dua2 x bangun!! muahahaha.

5. lg satu plan igt nk gi kenduri kawan yg kenal kt UPM arituh tp kt Ipoh la. and sorg dak TGB yg satu batch tp x rapat pn. yang tuh kt johor. so mmg x dapatla knn haha. I wish them a lot of joy and keberkatan dari Allah. Amin~~

6. update smlm nih cmpur ngn hari ni pnye lah. harini sgt2 lahhh slow, and bosan. Puasa juga harini. puasa ganti hehe. dah lama x puasa sbnrnye. so agak x bermaya.

7. Semalam gi tgk Wreck it Ralph! ngn adek2 lelaki aku. Best!! ^____^ . lama dah sbrnye x tgk cte kanak2 cmni. comel! I guess I left childhood so fast though.

8. Currently I've been thinking, am I moving too fast? Yelaa sbb terbang gi US setahun/2 taun awal dr kwn2 se batch. I lost one year of youth (literally ye). I know it hasnt take a toll on me during college years, tp skrg ni rasa sgt. With you being at work before your same age friends, you felt alone and stuff etc2. I know this may be temporary. but it felt like I could've have being in the journey where I experience this with my friends.

paham dak hahahhaaha...dah2

and the worse thing is, I still felt like, am I suitable for this engineering stuff? Or I havent found a job that suits me.

9. Tapi pikir gak, senior2 vandy dlu wat cmne la kn..mesti ada gak yg rse cmnih kt satu fasa dlm hidop dorg. or ada je org yg genius skip years belajar sume, mesti ada rse cmni gak. so i should fight this feelings. yela, overthinking bila xde benda lain nk buat.

:D k till tomorrow!

*nak buka puasa ape eh arini?

Istanbul aku Datang & Bond

Hi!

Kan dah cakap nk update hehe. susa btol skrg nk update post. xdela sbb busy mne, tp idea tu kluar bila mmg x duduk depan laptop. So i'm assuming duduk depan laptop ni x membantu proses kreativiti langsung? haha. kk merepek i know.

Last week hari khamis lepas balek kerja, kawan aku fiza, ajak aku kluar jln mlm tu. aku bab2 kluar ni bukan slalu hehe. so aku ikot je la dia eventhough jalan jammm tp sbb dia on the way balek so i'm on!

mmg random gila jalan2 sunway pyramid nih, dah kali kedua ktorg pegi situ lepas kerja. need to go somewhere else k. ktorg tgk wayang je haritu cte james bond! ^___^

to be honest, I've never watched James Bond movie before. EVER. haha. I am not a movie-person either. last time tgk movie is the one when its cte Batman. tgk ngn sape eh? hilang ingatan cket. huhu. so mcm xtau if Bond in sequel ke tidak. tapi tgk je sbb org kata the movie is the BEST BOND movie ever.

For me personally, the movie was great! walaupun kadang2 cerita dia slow cket. hehe. well, I'm a person that is easily pleased. hehe. first time tgk Bond, Daniel Craig ni hensem juga lah kan haha. lagi2 bila time actions yg dia buat. dlu2 ade kwn ni suke dia ni, and more old actors. time tu aku punyalah criticize dia psl taste dia. skali bole tahan gak la haha. *mamat geek/nerd dlm gamba kedua cute* bwahahaha

and the best intro ever, haha...

Overall I give you 4/5, Bond :)

Lepas tu hari Sabtu lepas, I punya anak buah punya kenduri kesyukuran <3 2-3="2-3" al="al" br="br" cicit="cicit" dia.="dia." dlm="dlm" falah="falah" family="family" giliran="giliran" haha="haha" ikot="ikot" lagi="lagi" lagii="lagii" lama="lama" mama.="mama." me="me" nama="nama" nenek="nenek" noh="noh" pertama="pertama" sepupu="sepupu"> Then mlm tu pegi tgk Istanbul aku datang dengan cousins! Cute gila cerita dia :D whats better is the view in Turkey! sngat cantik!! nk gi honeymoon sana lah *future hubby take note*. and baju2 yg lisa surihani pakai sume cantik2! Oh btw, aku bukan org yg suka tgk cerita melayu eh, atas obvious reason tp yg ini mmg best! perempuan mesti suka lah cte ni. aku ade tgk Aku Terima Nikahnya tapi BOSAN. jgn tgk, rugi je duit. k tu lain cte kn.

Mula2 tgk cte ni sbb Tomok je. x minat lisa sbb rse dia cm overrated. and  beto mmg x knal lgsg ah jgn ckp haha. lepas tgk ni tiba2 rse patutla ramai minat lisa surihani :) dia mmg cm sweet pn~ and suka lahh tgk Beto dlm cte ni. sweet haha. character dia je kott.

Overall 4/5 gak! haha

ktorg cousins ni actually x pernah jalan sama2 tiga org skali~ ni first time and i had a great night with them :')

hmm tu je kot buat kali ni. byee korg <3 br="br">

New Blog!

Hi korang! lamanye x tulis blog nih kn? ni nk bgtau, aritu ade buat blog baru. this one is somewhat my personal blog ekeke. so it must be private kn? ^___^

Kalau ade org nk follow, leh tulis kt comment sini kot? or inform in fb ke (cehhhh mcm byk follower je kn pffttt :P)

Blog yang ni mungkin akan tulis jugakkk tp mungkin more too other than personal thing. haha kita tgk lahh. :)

kk have a nice day korg!

aishh rindunyeee nk tulis blog yang ni~~

BIG UPDATE haha

Rasa macam lama gila tak tulis entry post. Ada rasa pelik jugak nak tulis bm sbb slalu sgt try tulis English haha. bm jd mcm ntah ape2.

So, tetibe rasa nk update blog setelah sekian lama berhabuk blog ni :P tgh pukul 5 pagi hari khamis harini. tgh stay up sbb nk clearkn laptop nk bg rosak so bole dpt replacement sbb seriously laptop aku nazak gila, like mcm dah merah dah space die. Td pn tgh dlm usaha nk siapkan homework due esok *haha procrastination still*

kk nk update:

1. Da senior last semester ni, perasaan? ntah xde pape sgt, maybe rse best nk habes blaja but at the same time, tak nampak masa dpn. I know I think too much haha tp seriously I hope all goes well. Last semester mcm byk sgt benda nk kena manage sbb da senior kn. Tetibe email byk psl benda2 after college and I havent think at all what I should do after college time Junior year dlu. Ignorant me, right. Time kt sini byk sgt benda jd yg byk gak buat aku down. Stress pn salah satu punca kot. Time nk recover, mcm jatuh ditimpa tangga je mslh. ada gak pikir maybe org lain punya mslh lg besar dr aku so aku malas nk cte2 kt org sbb org lain pn ade mslh sndiri. kk cerita lama. I also think I lost some of my self confidence all the way through the process. Yes mmg susah nk dpt balek confidence but now I'm slowly making the best out of it. Takkn smpi bila2 nk jd cmni kn. Thank God for less burden this semester, yet probably. haha

2. Last Winter Trip: San Francisco - LA - Las Vegas :)

probably one of my favorite trips sepanjang kt US. favorite kt Canada :) Sob2 last trip maybe sbb da xde duit. Spring Break stay je kot kt vandy. trip ktorg 19 org, my car only 4 people, aku, Aqis, Syun, Irfan. Me and 3 guys. LOL and we barely know each other before. lupa nk tambah, semua dak Junior except aku. yeah i feel a lil bit young there. haha. I kinda like being with guys because they're more open and stuff and you know a lot of stuff (different stuff from what girls talk hehe) which i like, tp at the same time, its missing its warmness. alah u know guys, mana kesah certain things. So kdg2 je la, I felt a lil bit boring and lonely? lol okay i cant describe it. Rasa mcm xde teman nk cerita benda2 prpuan la kot. *I'm bad at describing things, my bad~ nk tgk gamba, mehla tgk kt facebook, penat tau upload :P

3. Now working as a pekerja buruh. haha kerja kt tempat kafetaria (err eja btol ke x ni eh?) kerja dining, mcm serve org, buat waffle ke omelette ke, and tlg pastikan pinggan mangkuk sume ada kt tmpt asal dorg and pastikan sume bersih. serius kerja ni penat, and gaji pn x sepadan dgn kerja die. even kerja reeve or kerja kt Tech centre or Media center yg duduk angkat call pn gaji mahal cket. nasib2.. lol and the worst thing is, x pasal2 kena tegur x buat kerja ngn bos. bukan x buat kerja, masalahnye sume da setel, xkn nk pusing2 lak kan? da la time rush hour aku byk tlg lol. xpe2 saba2.. i need money! haha bersyukur2

4. what else? oh i joined 4 dances for anyf this year. okay mcm tamak. mula2 nk masuk 3 je tp terlupa nk sign up satu ni so x masuk mula2. so mcm sign in benda lain. tetibe org lain drop, so die ajak aku masuk balek. and aku mmg teringin nk masuk dance tu haha. so alkisahnya aku masuk 4. xpe kot, still can manage lg. lgpn sem ni 7 credit hour je :)

5. mcm x percaya gak sem ni 7 credit hour je tp advisor dah cek, mmg tggl tu je lol. 1 klas design, 1 klas process control(cheme) and satu klas chinese calligraphy :D hope all goes well Amin~~

6. other things: less people to crush on. HAHA xleh bla. kalau time seniors tahun lps ada dlu, still ada crush la tp biase2 je skrg (pengakuan2). maybe sbb kita paling tua kat sini so mcm x suke spe2 dah (okay, this is sooo childish!). it struck me that maybe i'm maturing? until some point i kinda have crush on some people younger than me. tp buat2 bese je kot sbb org tu maybe anggap kita mcm kakak die. k dah. will not talk too much about this tettt. why am i so unlucky in love. (oke cheesyyy, byee)

omg less than 120 days (x kira, tp ade kwn kira) nk grad! post ni pn rse mcm panjang gila dah. mcm la ade org baca kn smpi nk pikir pnjg mne nk tulis. hehe ke ada?

and i'm 21 going to be 22 (lama lagi). and still transitioning to adult life. i felt that mcm susa gila nk separatekn rse independent and dependent kt parents sbb lama sgt jauh dgn dorg. mcm time ktorg sama2 x byk. ive been in boarding school since 13. so mcm byk masa teenager jauh ngn parents. tgh pikir mesti pelik time balek msia nnt. lagi2 sulung mcm aku ni. jeng3

k itu mcm update keseluruhan je kot sepanjang maybe 6 months? x igt. hee okay bye! :)

p/s: currently in repeat haha. first time liking something from this band. x igt dgr ktne tp rsenye dlm playlist Syun time ktorg trip and dgr harini sbb tekan link James.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusanku di saat2 final ini. Amin~ jauhkan lah aku dr perasaan pesisimis (btol ke aku eja ni eh) yg seringkali menyusahkn diri sndiri ini. I hope for a better tomorrow :)

Alive

"The fact that they will leave me when they found someone better makes me think twice to be close and comfortable to them.

Sedang mencuba menulis di blog yg dah lama terbiar haha. Byk draft sbnrnya saved. Skrg ni bru ada apps blogger free! Next time ill write about this semester. Hee ja mata!

The One That Got Away - Katy Perry w/ Lyrics

love Katy Perry! :)

I do that always..... Lol

Kamenashi Kazuya :)

Kame!!! I've been crushing over him ever since I watched Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge ♥

best gila cte tu! I dont usually watch J-drama but yeah i decided to since I decided to learn Japanese haha. I did noticed him when my friend, Sarah shows this J-pop group KAT-TUN as the most good looking one but I didnt bother to search him up.

I told Sarah that I have a crush on him :P and she said what? he's a pretty boy and kinda looks like a girl because he's too pretty! okay I dont care hehe

Classes had been going..normal, dont know what other words to describe it. Senior year still x rse lepak2 lg maybe sbb saya budak cheme TT next sem maybe...

I've really start to feel scared of the post-grad day because I cant really imagine what I'll do after this. Actually I've never want to think of this day. It's a whole new world ya know. A big big world with lots of responsibilities. sighh. I want my carefree days and I know that will not happen. Guess I'm too naive~

Japanese classes are great! and im not regretting it~ I like learning new characters and phrases etc.. with depressing engineering classes and a 5-hours horror lab (and we have to stay in lab even though we finished the lab =.='), taking this class makes me looking forward to it everyday :)

There's so much going on inside me that I feel its not worth mentioning anymore. I've open my blog thinking to write about it but then I punched ctrl+w. why is that its me who starts everything? I've trying to work on my relationships but I dont see the other party doing that.

penat tau x penat...its you who dont try to understand me, talking behind my back (actually in front because i actually heard it accidentally when you are in front of me, not noticing me at your back) i dont talk bad about people unless they started it first.

what you did to me, you will also get it from me. yes, aku mmg pendendam sbb semuanya slalu terpendam dlm hati (and voluntarily i get depressed because of people)

people say i can get along with people well. yeah on the outside, not on the inside. i've been unhappy and confused. if you dont know me well, dont judge me

shoot, tersasar dah post ni lol

Thats my life for now. next week, seniors will have a engineering/IT career fair which we must go. I cant think of anything of what to do there. I think this is new. somewhat alike with the transition from high school to college.

Nice song from Archuleta :)

I heard this song from someone's blog, soo nice! replaying it ever since. :D

naik gilaaa

waaaaaa i think i need to work on managing my stress/pressure level. hihuu. hari sabtu bru tau hwk design kena hantar hari isnin. so mcm pressure sbb x sedia pape pn. bukan x bese sbrnye last minute tp ni mcm tetiba je, stress gila weekend ni!

siap dlm wktu subuh2 tu kol 6am then klas pukul 9, so kena bgn pukul 8am la. bermaksud kena tdo 2 jam je! :( i love sleeping~~

oh yes mlm smlm ada raya celebration by the juniors, sronok gak smlm cuma agak packed cket sbb tmpt tu kecik gak, tp ramai org yg dijemput haha. mat saleh pn byk taun ni :) cuma yg x besnye mse balek, time tu hujan so mcm xnk balek jln kaki, so tggu vandy van. time tu nk pau2 mknn cket tp sbb nk cepat, kuah tumpah :( habes bju..stress2..serius aku rse aku xleh buat keje bila org pressure ni. tp aku tau kena ubah. tp its still hard. i get stressed very easily :\ which is a bad thing. i have this kinda thing that when im excited, i will be very excited, and when im in negative mood, i will be in that mood deeply LOL.

td 3 jam free pegi wat resume kena hantar HARINI gak lg 6 jam haha. oke trok for sure. tp at least this is work under pressure kn? :P bile wat resume ni, rse mcm kosong je :| x byk benda leh letak. haeh. xpe senior ni sempat lg nk wat activity pape.

aritu pegi student health sbb something, pastu doc mcm pelik sbb byk yg mcm x kena, so dorg ckp sbb stress LOL

skrg ni makin byk pimples. benci2.. dlu xde pn cmni, bru nk membesar kot haha. blom satu elok, tetibe kluar lg tmpt lain. seteres2

btw klas cheme sem ni mcm boring cket. haiyaaa, susa btol nk focus :| bile focus je, asyik kate boring je. maybe sbb material, maybe jugak sbb professor die kureng cket. nk prof jennings or laibinis! :[ my mind kept wandering lps try focus. prof2 sem ni lak bukan jenis yg summarize kn ape yg die ajar mcm laibinis ngn jennings, so klu terlepas dgr, x dgr dah lah. nk harap bce buku? haha. i took 5 credit Japanese class and i like it! hari2 blaja benda ni, so mcm course load mcm berat cket. tp rse best! sbb hari2 wat hwk la aku mcm rajin ni kot :D

oh and did i mention that i just bought a new dslr? CANON T3i! <333 tp still rse mcm x reti sgt nk gne manual dia hihuu. oke, penat tulis. bye!

nekko haja!! :)

wasnt going to open Allkpop today, but i did huh

Title: Nekko(Be Mine) Haja? (Okay?)

x expect pn sedap or catchy mne lgu ni, sbb lagu2 before dorg bes gila..so cm rendahkn expectation r takot x sedap.. tp AWESOME GILA weyhh

haha kbyeesokexam~~

this is why i fell in love in the first place in korean scene and stuff ;) their ost's :)

walaupun aku x paham spth haram ape die nyanyi, i was drawn to it. since then, i was interested in their language. its beautiful, in fact one of most beautiful language in the world, if not, my opinion. *yeay skrg ni da leh paham cket2 lgu ni w/out tgk lyrics*

so today's my 2nd half, macro econ. bosan cket sbnrnye, i was lost sometimes when the substitute teacher gives the lesson. pls r prof die okay :)

my weekend

huishhh panasnye hariniii danggitt..kluar x tgk weather lak tuh, men pakai je cardigan =.=' 39 degree..bahang panas mcm kt msia

nyesal x pinjam kete org gi amek package, van lak masuk bengkel..ish ni yg buat mcm x saba nk ade kete sndiri haha

package lak lmbt smpi huhu..slalu cmtu kot, smpi nk dekat kol 4..x dpt ah nk cepat2..td pn tmpt amek package nk tutup dah, seb bek pakcik baek bg bukak jap..rumet aku sorg ni lak x smpt nk pos brg diee haha..tu la lmbt siap :P

pastu panas2 tu lapa lak teringin nk makan satay, patot letak package tu balek dlu..penat2 semputt

weekend ni cm bese r tgk movie jap, cte korea jap, novel jap..pastu smlm rse stuffy sgt..nk kate mkn, xde sgt pn..biskut je pn..rse mcm xleh wat pape..rpenye sbb minum 4 cawan kopi hahah!

kopi french cappucinno je pn tp yela byk sgt caffein kot ngn air manis..x suke air kosong kot lol..

tambah lg ngn mate asyik tgk laptop je..bosan gak r..kdg2 rse nk dok luar sje2 lepak2 tgk pemandangan vandy yg slalu tgk ni..

lme btol x bace novel..skrg ni sume terabur..bce satu, berhenti, terbeli bru, bce cket konon nk habeskn buku no 2, busy pastu stop, terbeli bru lg hahaha omg habit beli buku cantek lol

buku yg bce fes tu sparuh jln dah, so igt nk sambung balek ah..nk hbes dah tu

sbrnye la kn..buku nye story lg bes dr movie/drama sbb wordings die bes..pastu rse mcm kite jd mcm watak buku tu cewahhh..cume focus aku cepat hilang bile lps bce 2 muka surat ._.

same goes with watching drama. klu tgk drama, mula la hilang focus lps satu part tgk eventhough bukan sbb cte tu bosan, tp sbb aku yg cepat bosan..u get wat i mean?

movie pn sme, berhenti jap lps stgh jam..pastu bukak mende mengarut mcm fb twitter ym although xde bende yg nk ditgk pn(bukan ade org nk msg pn haha)

kdg2 xde sbb, kdg2 sbb tetibe ade isu yg aku curious..x kesah la ape2

contoh, tgh2 tgk cte korea ni, mak mertua heroin ni ckp suruh anak die letak gamba Grace Kelly dlm bilik heroin tu supaya cucu die leh jd cantek, bapak mentua kate letak Audrey Hepburn lol

Audrey hepburn kenal la, tp Grace Kelly x, so aku gi search wiki youtube psl die hahahaha

xde keje ngeh3..lps tu terbukak Mika-Grace Kelly kt related videos..teringat yg suke Mika dlu..

then, gi la wat station Mika kt pandora, dgr lgu bwh ni, terus suka! :) lmenye x dgr lgu mika!

rpenye ni satu album ngn lgu Big Girl ngn Lollipop (Life in Cartoon Motion)

gomen, byk merepek~~ ;p

updated: waaaaa terlupe harini ade meeting reeve, x dpt byk syif la bulan ni camni :(

bad day today, hope for a better day tomorrow~

4th july

oh hi!

terlupa nk cerita psl 4th July tahun ni. asyik simpan draft je huhu. to be honest, this year 4th of July sucked! i wanted to write a post about that at that time but i figured out that i will let myself drawn emotionally. oh actually i did write a post before about that lol..

im sure he'll not read this. or maybe they'll not. i was looking forward to see fireworks and taking pictures and stuff. you know, this year will be our last. so i was asking some of my girl friends (my batch) to go out that day. its useless to ask some of them actually. some of them were busy because of exam the day after, some of them was lazy to go out and some of them dont actually care of that day haha. so only me and my roommate go.

Aku ngn rumet aku naik kete asing2 (which is a bad idea). sampai sne parking tempat lain2...lps tu kena tggl mcm tu je bile da smpi. wt freaking fish did they left me alone??!!! when im the only girl there? mcm mne klu aku sesat? mcm mne klu x jmpe jalan? mcm mne klu kene culik? heh ko tu lelaki oke?! xleh nk pikir ke? i was getting distracted and distraught by that, with feeling of angst around me. my hands were shivering and im scared of being alone. dlm hati aku mencarut2 je lelaki2 ni. x guna btol, i kept looking around for them and was very disappointed because there were no sign of them at all, x kira lah waving ke, panggil ke. at the same time, i tried to enjoy the fireworks by myself though.

wtf member, tggl mcm tu je. x pena consider that i am a girl. i was looking forward to have a picture with fireworks behind me. habes je fireworks aku reda je..i was thinking the bright side. maybe they were going far from me but still saw me from afar.

the weird thing is, i still managed to be okay when i meet them after that. i wanted them to know that i was angry, but all that was shown in my face is nothing. like nothing happened. i wanted to frown but instead i smiled (bukan senyum lebar).

i dont know why, this situation kinda reminded me of the past, which is kinda blurry but still hurts. i forgot things easily but my heart doesnt.

so i hate hate hate them right now, especially that guy. im thinking he hasnt matured yet but come on lah! da 20++ kot..

worst night ever! i'm seriously having trouble trusting people now. especially guys

so it is okay to left me alone with strangers if i'm not your girlfriend or your relatives, is it?

bleghhhhh watever grr

no words cant describe my feeling right now, im disappointed, frustrated and angry. and it all translated in tears which i really couldnt stop it. it scares me so much. that feeling that is not something new to me. like i am not matter at all. i thought i got through this, i know i had :(

apphoo..

random 1

"The problem is, when i'm getting closer to someone, I tend to push away from her/him. I realized what I'm doing and I don't want that, but I still do that even though I'd convinced myself that I've change for better. and I don't know why *sigh*- monolog


btw, really need to change laptop battery dell nih! dah kelip2 merah da LED die..siann laptop ni dpt tuan cmni haha..rse cm nk beli laptop kecik la pulak bg ringan cket laptop besar nih..aigooo

everyday i'm studying hehe

sekarang pukul 11 mlm. This is the material i've been studying.



Yeah STUDY HARD ROCK! lmfao~
This gotta be what i'm feeling right now. haha esok exam circuit!! *gelabah2 sbb x minat circuit so study mcm hape*

lagu ori die awesome gile! favorite song at the moment <3 the beat is sick yo! everyday im shuffling...hari2 dgr x jemu..rse mmg dlm party pn ade hak3

btw aku ngn rumet stuju yg lelaki pakai hoodie kelabu n berkaca mata tu agak comel haha ops!

bye, wish me luck!

update may+jun

adeii..byk gile draft yg saved dlm blog ni =.='semua x post haha. lama x baca blog org gak. ohh rse mcm byk btol tggal dunia luar dr vandy ni..


byk benda nk cte sbnrnye dr lps habis sem lps, stat dr senior farewell then graduation day, trip gi New York ngn Midwest Games. tp skrg ni da rse malas nk cerita hahaha


gamba byk je, tp kt fesbuk la ye :P
agak hectic la bulan May arituh. pastu duit pon habes byk bulan tu jugak. agaknye sbb xde ape nk buat kot cuti arituh n asyik singgah outlet je, mane xnye...tp duit masih stabil :D 


nk beli dslr kt bookstore tp pak cik bookstore kate dorg da lme xde stok canon. waaaa die siap suggest beli nikon TT. i want canon dslr! da lme tggu summer sbb nk tggu duit masuk dalam student card utk beli dslr. so tgh pikir, klu gne cash rugi la..klu tggu, smpi bile xde stok. pak cik tu pn kate die xtau.


summer ni lepak je sbb amek satu kelas. tp engineering class so mcm hard cket. kelas circuit which I HATE! dr skola rendah mmg x suke. so confusing!! kalau compare cheme ngn ee, i pick cheme although cheme is what i used to hate dlu mse mula2 blaja sini. cheme is complicated but ee is another whole new complication for me (am i making any sense? lol wtv) 


td kemas bilik cket, bersepah gile rse! bukan sbb apa, byk sgt brg baru beli and dapat XD smpi xtau nk simpan mana dah. dalam stor penuh, ruang tamu penuh, bwh katil pn aiyakk
so td cm cuba gak r cri tempat, susun2 brg yg mcm x gune sgt, update wardrobe sume haha


okeilah, nk smbung tgk 90210!! my new favourite tv show! hehehehe ;D