naik gilaaa

waaaaaa i think i need to work on managing my stress/pressure level. hihuu. hari sabtu bru tau hwk design kena hantar hari isnin. so mcm pressure sbb x sedia pape pn. bukan x bese sbrnye last minute tp ni mcm tetiba je, stress gila weekend ni!

siap dlm wktu subuh2 tu kol 6am then klas pukul 9, so kena bgn pukul 8am la. bermaksud kena tdo 2 jam je! :( i love sleeping~~

oh yes mlm smlm ada raya celebration by the juniors, sronok gak smlm cuma agak packed cket sbb tmpt tu kecik gak, tp ramai org yg dijemput haha. mat saleh pn byk taun ni :) cuma yg x besnye mse balek, time tu hujan so mcm xnk balek jln kaki, so tggu vandy van. time tu nk pau2 mknn cket tp sbb nk cepat, kuah tumpah :( habes bju..stress2..serius aku rse aku xleh buat keje bila org pressure ni. tp aku tau kena ubah. tp its still hard. i get stressed very easily :\ which is a bad thing. i have this kinda thing that when im excited, i will be very excited, and when im in negative mood, i will be in that mood deeply LOL.

td 3 jam free pegi wat resume kena hantar HARINI gak lg 6 jam haha. oke trok for sure. tp at least this is work under pressure kn? :P bile wat resume ni, rse mcm kosong je :| x byk benda leh letak. haeh. xpe senior ni sempat lg nk wat activity pape.

aritu pegi student health sbb something, pastu doc mcm pelik sbb byk yg mcm x kena, so dorg ckp sbb stress LOL

skrg ni makin byk pimples. benci2.. dlu xde pn cmni, bru nk membesar kot haha. blom satu elok, tetibe kluar lg tmpt lain. seteres2

btw klas cheme sem ni mcm boring cket. haiyaaa, susa btol nk focus :| bile focus je, asyik kate boring je. maybe sbb material, maybe jugak sbb professor die kureng cket. nk prof jennings or laibinis! :[ my mind kept wandering lps try focus. prof2 sem ni lak bukan jenis yg summarize kn ape yg die ajar mcm laibinis ngn jennings, so klu terlepas dgr, x dgr dah lah. nk harap bce buku? haha. i took 5 credit Japanese class and i like it! hari2 blaja benda ni, so mcm course load mcm berat cket. tp rse best! sbb hari2 wat hwk la aku mcm rajin ni kot :D

oh and did i mention that i just bought a new dslr? CANON T3i! <333 tp still rse mcm x reti sgt nk gne manual dia hihuu. oke, penat tulis. bye!

nekko haja!! :)

wasnt going to open Allkpop today, but i did huh

Title: Nekko(Be Mine) Haja? (Okay?)

x expect pn sedap or catchy mne lgu ni, sbb lagu2 before dorg bes gila..so cm rendahkn expectation r takot x sedap.. tp AWESOME GILA weyhh

haha kbyeesokexam~~

this is why i fell in love in the first place in korean scene and stuff ;) their ost's :)

walaupun aku x paham spth haram ape die nyanyi, i was drawn to it. since then, i was interested in their language. its beautiful, in fact one of most beautiful language in the world, if not, my opinion. *yeay skrg ni da leh paham cket2 lgu ni w/out tgk lyrics*

so today's my 2nd half, macro econ. bosan cket sbnrnye, i was lost sometimes when the substitute teacher gives the lesson. pls r prof die okay :)

my weekend

huishhh panasnye hariniii danggitt..kluar x tgk weather lak tuh, men pakai je cardigan =.=' 39 degree..bahang panas mcm kt msia

nyesal x pinjam kete org gi amek package, van lak masuk bengkel..ish ni yg buat mcm x saba nk ade kete sndiri haha

package lak lmbt smpi huhu..slalu cmtu kot, smpi nk dekat kol 4..x dpt ah nk cepat2..td pn tmpt amek package nk tutup dah, seb bek pakcik baek bg bukak jap..rumet aku sorg ni lak x smpt nk pos brg diee haha..tu la lmbt siap :P

pastu panas2 tu lapa lak teringin nk makan satay, patot letak package tu balek dlu..penat2 semputt

weekend ni cm bese r tgk movie jap, cte korea jap, novel jap..pastu smlm rse stuffy sgt..nk kate mkn, xde sgt pn..biskut je pn..rse mcm xleh wat pape..rpenye sbb minum 4 cawan kopi hahah!

kopi french cappucinno je pn tp yela byk sgt caffein kot ngn air manis..x suke air kosong kot lol..

tambah lg ngn mate asyik tgk laptop je..bosan gak r..kdg2 rse nk dok luar sje2 lepak2 tgk pemandangan vandy yg slalu tgk ni..

lme btol x bace novel..skrg ni sume terabur..bce satu, berhenti, terbeli bru, bce cket konon nk habeskn buku no 2, busy pastu stop, terbeli bru lg hahaha omg habit beli buku cantek lol

buku yg bce fes tu sparuh jln dah, so igt nk sambung balek ah..nk hbes dah tu

sbrnye la kn..buku nye story lg bes dr movie/drama sbb wordings die bes..pastu rse mcm kite jd mcm watak buku tu cewahhh..cume focus aku cepat hilang bile lps bce 2 muka surat ._.

same goes with watching drama. klu tgk drama, mula la hilang focus lps satu part tgk eventhough bukan sbb cte tu bosan, tp sbb aku yg cepat bosan..u get wat i mean?

movie pn sme, berhenti jap lps stgh jam..pastu bukak mende mengarut mcm fb twitter ym although xde bende yg nk ditgk pn(bukan ade org nk msg pn haha)

kdg2 xde sbb, kdg2 sbb tetibe ade isu yg aku curious..x kesah la ape2

contoh, tgh2 tgk cte korea ni, mak mertua heroin ni ckp suruh anak die letak gamba Grace Kelly dlm bilik heroin tu supaya cucu die leh jd cantek, bapak mentua kate letak Audrey Hepburn lol

Audrey hepburn kenal la, tp Grace Kelly x, so aku gi search wiki youtube psl die hahahaha

xde keje ngeh3..lps tu terbukak Mika-Grace Kelly kt related videos..teringat yg suke Mika dlu..

then, gi la wat station Mika kt pandora, dgr lgu bwh ni, terus suka! :) lmenye x dgr lgu mika!

rpenye ni satu album ngn lgu Big Girl ngn Lollipop (Life in Cartoon Motion)

gomen, byk merepek~~ ;p

updated: waaaaa terlupe harini ade meeting reeve, x dpt byk syif la bulan ni camni :(

bad day today, hope for a better day tomorrow~

4th july

oh hi!

terlupa nk cerita psl 4th July tahun ni. asyik simpan draft je huhu. to be honest, this year 4th of July sucked! i wanted to write a post about that at that time but i figured out that i will let myself drawn emotionally. oh actually i did write a post before about that lol..

im sure he'll not read this. or maybe they'll not. i was looking forward to see fireworks and taking pictures and stuff. you know, this year will be our last. so i was asking some of my girl friends (my batch) to go out that day. its useless to ask some of them actually. some of them were busy because of exam the day after, some of them was lazy to go out and some of them dont actually care of that day haha. so only me and my roommate go.

Aku ngn rumet aku naik kete asing2 (which is a bad idea). sampai sne parking tempat lain2...lps tu kena tggl mcm tu je bile da smpi. wt freaking fish did they left me alone??!!! when im the only girl there? mcm mne klu aku sesat? mcm mne klu x jmpe jalan? mcm mne klu kene culik? heh ko tu lelaki oke?! xleh nk pikir ke? i was getting distracted and distraught by that, with feeling of angst around me. my hands were shivering and im scared of being alone. dlm hati aku mencarut2 je lelaki2 ni. x guna btol, i kept looking around for them and was very disappointed because there were no sign of them at all, x kira lah waving ke, panggil ke. at the same time, i tried to enjoy the fireworks by myself though.

wtf member, tggl mcm tu je. x pena consider that i am a girl. i was looking forward to have a picture with fireworks behind me. habes je fireworks aku reda je..i was thinking the bright side. maybe they were going far from me but still saw me from afar.

the weird thing is, i still managed to be okay when i meet them after that. i wanted them to know that i was angry, but all that was shown in my face is nothing. like nothing happened. i wanted to frown but instead i smiled (bukan senyum lebar).

i dont know why, this situation kinda reminded me of the past, which is kinda blurry but still hurts. i forgot things easily but my heart doesnt.

so i hate hate hate them right now, especially that guy. im thinking he hasnt matured yet but come on lah! da 20++ kot..

worst night ever! i'm seriously having trouble trusting people now. especially guys

so it is okay to left me alone with strangers if i'm not your girlfriend or your relatives, is it?

bleghhhhh watever grr

no words cant describe my feeling right now, im disappointed, frustrated and angry. and it all translated in tears which i really couldnt stop it. it scares me so much. that feeling that is not something new to me. like i am not matter at all. i thought i got through this, i know i had :(

apphoo..

random 1

"The problem is, when i'm getting closer to someone, I tend to push away from her/him. I realized what I'm doing and I don't want that, but I still do that even though I'd convinced myself that I've change for better. and I don't know why *sigh*- monolog


btw, really need to change laptop battery dell nih! dah kelip2 merah da LED die..siann laptop ni dpt tuan cmni haha..rse cm nk beli laptop kecik la pulak bg ringan cket laptop besar nih..aigooo

everyday i'm studying hehe

sekarang pukul 11 mlm. This is the material i've been studying.



Yeah STUDY HARD ROCK! lmfao~
This gotta be what i'm feeling right now. haha esok exam circuit!! *gelabah2 sbb x minat circuit so study mcm hape*

lagu ori die awesome gile! favorite song at the moment <3 the beat is sick yo! everyday im shuffling...hari2 dgr x jemu..rse mmg dlm party pn ade hak3

btw aku ngn rumet stuju yg lelaki pakai hoodie kelabu n berkaca mata tu agak comel haha ops!

bye, wish me luck!

update may+jun

adeii..byk gile draft yg saved dlm blog ni =.='semua x post haha. lama x baca blog org gak. ohh rse mcm byk btol tggal dunia luar dr vandy ni..


byk benda nk cte sbnrnye dr lps habis sem lps, stat dr senior farewell then graduation day, trip gi New York ngn Midwest Games. tp skrg ni da rse malas nk cerita hahaha


gamba byk je, tp kt fesbuk la ye :P
agak hectic la bulan May arituh. pastu duit pon habes byk bulan tu jugak. agaknye sbb xde ape nk buat kot cuti arituh n asyik singgah outlet je, mane xnye...tp duit masih stabil :D 


nk beli dslr kt bookstore tp pak cik bookstore kate dorg da lme xde stok canon. waaaa die siap suggest beli nikon TT. i want canon dslr! da lme tggu summer sbb nk tggu duit masuk dalam student card utk beli dslr. so tgh pikir, klu gne cash rugi la..klu tggu, smpi bile xde stok. pak cik tu pn kate die xtau.


summer ni lepak je sbb amek satu kelas. tp engineering class so mcm hard cket. kelas circuit which I HATE! dr skola rendah mmg x suke. so confusing!! kalau compare cheme ngn ee, i pick cheme although cheme is what i used to hate dlu mse mula2 blaja sini. cheme is complicated but ee is another whole new complication for me (am i making any sense? lol wtv) 


td kemas bilik cket, bersepah gile rse! bukan sbb apa, byk sgt brg baru beli and dapat XD smpi xtau nk simpan mana dah. dalam stor penuh, ruang tamu penuh, bwh katil pn aiyakk
so td cm cuba gak r cri tempat, susun2 brg yg mcm x gune sgt, update wardrobe sume haha


okeilah, nk smbung tgk 90210!! my new favourite tv show! hehehehe ;D

Dreaming to the noise

i cant be heartless. that's the problem!


i think i'm not bothered at all about this. but it really is.
bukan serious matter okay hahaha. just something that recurring in my life and i hated this feeling.
waaaaa